03 September, 2005

this is the end

cure - 'homesick'

well, it's done and it's over.


the boy & me have broken up. and it's fucking painful.
six years is a long time, and i feel shipwrecked right now.


i don't feel alone, because i wonderful supportive friends around me, but i feel horribly lonely.
and very very lost. i feel like part of my identity has been torn away.

the rock which i have relied on and leant on is gone.
on a logical, mental level, i know this is the right thing.

but my heart & soul don't agree.


on that logical level, i know i will be ok, and life will go on.

but even though i know it & believe it, it's so damn hard.



I WILL BE OK.

that's my new mantra.

so, if you see me around, give me a hug & tell me i'm doing ok.

4 comments:

arumanda said...

you're doing ok babe. nah, i think you're doing fabulously considering...

cyber hugs and bubbles of energetic smiles.

Martine said...

I will do that for you honey, but of course, you don't even need to ask because you'd be getting it anyway, from the wide circle of friends you have who believe in your strength and sweetness.

Martine xoxo

Indigorayz said...

BIG HUGS POURING OUT AND OVER AND AROUND!!!!
You are doing okay!! Just keep at it! Love ya.............

j-ster said...

Big hugs from someone who hasnt been on the internet much but has been thinking of you...

Kiss hug kampai