03 September, 2005
this is the end
well, it's done and it's over.
the boy & me have broken up. and it's fucking painful.
six years is a long time, and i feel shipwrecked right now.
i don't feel alone, because i wonderful supportive friends around me, but i feel horribly lonely.
and very very lost. i feel like part of my identity has been torn away.
the rock which i have relied on and leant on is gone.
on a logical, mental level, i know this is the right thing.
but my heart & soul don't agree.
on that logical level, i know i will be ok, and life will go on.
but even though i know it & believe it, it's so damn hard.
I WILL BE OK.
that's my new mantra.
so, if you see me around, give me a hug & tell me i'm doing ok.