11 September, 2005
how are you?
this is the hardest question for me to answer right now.
do i give the feel good answer, or do i say the truth?
the truth, i am NOT ok. i feel horrible.
i feel like there's nothing to look forward to & nothing has any meaning anymore.
it's like i am going through the motions of an empty life & i can't tell people that.
i honestly feel completely hopeless.
but when someone asks me, 'how are you?', i can't tell them that.
so i am telling you now. i am not ok.
i am a lost girl in a big scary world & i really don't know what to do.
i have lost my anchor.