・・・Ups & Downs In Sinland・・・

Been a lot going on in the last few weeks - so here's a round up of the good, the bad & the ugly:

K's dad was diagnosed with lung cancer; luckily is appears to be treatable, but that still means a course of chemo and radiation. Really feel bad for K's family - this year truly has been a shitty one health wise.

My grandma is bouncing in & out of hospital (she's out at the moment). She keeps having random black outs which have become more and more frequent. Hospital has checked out pretty much every part of her body which could potentially cause this, but have come up with nothing. It's really worrying for those close to her; who have to deal with it & pick her up. However, grandma is quite blase about the whole thing; 'Oh, I'm blacked out, so don't feel a thing!' Funny woman...

K reached the end of his 6-month TB treatment. He went to the hospital, and the doctor said he would have to have a further 3-months' worth of meds because he took so long to get a negative sputum test. So, that's not even over yet. But it does mean we'll both be ending our meds in February (if everything goes to plan...)

I'm still feeling OK (touch wood). Have another TB check up next week, so will see for sure then.
Had my first company health check a couple of weeks ago. That was definitely an experience. Had pretty much everything prodded and/or x-rayed. Even did the barium thing. I opted out of the chest x-ray, seeing as i have already had 4 or 5 this year, and think my lungs are doing pretty well. Haven't had the results yet, but as the nurses/doctors didn't let out any gasps of shock or surprise (or even awe, sadly), I don't think anything too awful will show up.

I have actually bought my ticket to Germany - flying into Frankfurt on 19th December & flying out on 11th January. Still trying to sort out the logistics of when, where & who - 2 families & three countries. Fun. Least they're all in the same continent & neighbouring countries.

Last Saturday, i went to the Dr Sketchy Exhibition Party, which turned out to be one of the best nights out i had had in ages. Lots & lots of fun & smiles & friendly faces. And lots of wows! Go here, here, here and here to see who wowed me. Came away inspired - now want to know where i can buy nipple tassels and fluffy underwear...



25 days till Germany...

★ limboland ★

Long distance relationships are weird.
I have never been in one before, and i must say that they aren't the greatest way of having a relationship (unsurprisingly).

The German and i are managing to keep in touch pretty much everyday via email & phone, so i don't feel too far way from him.
Of course i miss him - especially as we were living together & now there's big empty German-shaped space in my flat. But i know I'm going to see him soon.

I do, however, feel in limbo. I have mentally made the commitment to move to Germany next year. I have been telling people that i 'plan' to move to Germany. But i haven't graduated to saying i 'will' yet. And that leaves me with a feeling of limbo-ness.
Physically I'm still here. Mentally I'm moving.

So why don't i just say it? Why don't i just shout out 'I'M MOVING TO GERMANY!!!!!'?
Good question...

But i have a few lame reasons why:
1. I don't know when i will move; i want to get my TB treatment over and done with first
2. I'm scared that if i tell everyone, then it won't happen (and end up looking like a fool)
3. It scares me shitless to move to country where a) i have never lived, and b) i don't speak the language
4. It scares me that i am about to make a huge leap of faith, and leave behind a country that has been my home for 17 years (yes, that is right...seventeen)

Hmmm....looking at my lame list, it appears i may be a tad scared about the move...

Well, let me put it here in a big shout:

I AM MOVING TO GERMANY NEXT YEAR.
I AM GOING TO MAKE A HUGE LEAP OF FAITH TO FOLLOW THE GERMAN HALF WAY ROUND THE WORLD.
AND I AM GOING TO MAKE DAMN SURE IT ALL WORKS OUT AND WE LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

so there.




(PS My TB meds are still working fine, in case you were wondering)

Consumptive Diaries Part 27: Even more cautiously optimistic

Went to the hospital yesterday to see how my liver's doing on the new meds.

And it's getting better! Last month was 40 something. This month 30 something.
And usually, the liver gets worse at first while it adjusts itself to the new meds.
Still, I've only been on the meds for 2 weeks & have another 3 and half months to go, but i remain cautiously optimistic.

In other news...

The weekend didn't turn out as terrible as i had anticipated. spent it largely on my own, but watched lots of interesting TV (i now know more shark trivia than ever - for instance, did you know that jalapenos will not work as a shark deterrent?); started a new knitting project & made some good food for myself.

And started planning my Christmas & New year holiday planning. Am planning to go from 19th December to 11th January. And will spend all (or most of it) in the company of the German. AND we are going to go to three countries...Germany, France & England. Think a nice road trip is coming up...


Only 6 and a half weeks to go...