something i can never have - nine inch nails
well, yes, i have been silent for a while.
mainly because i have STILL not got round to calling the internet company.
now, i have no access at all....my own fault...
so, here i am, at my desk, pretending that i am working...well, it's friday afternoon - brain's in neutral.
the last few weeks have been a giant rolleroaster of emotions and disappointments.
mostly involving one person who shall remain nameless.
in a nutshell, we flirted, got closer, got VERY close, and then got even closer.
and i was happy.
the flirtation had been going on for a while - and while i wasn't expecting big things, i thought that maybe there was some big sparks that could be fanned.
and then it all came crashing down.
he-who-shall-not-be-named decided that he didn't really want me as much as he had previously professed. in fact, there was another 'one' there that he wanted more.
and i was cast aside & left adrift.
and so, once more, i have been disappointed by someone who i thought was better than that.
my man-radar is seriously screwed. think i need a new one.
but, yes, i am ok. i am just disappointed with him for not really knowing what he wanted.
and i am disappointed in myself for letting myself be opened & being hurt.
argh...thank god for good, sanity saving, friends and alcohol.
finally, on a much more positive note, mummy & daddy sin are arriving tomorrow (the parental sins?) and they are staying in japan for 2 whole weeks. Hurrah.
it will be nice to have some family around - haven't touched base with any of them for over a year now.
and we're going to kyushu too. yay! so need a trip outside of kanto.