I know i have mentioned this before, but I am planning to leave Japan in May.
I'm going to follow The German round the world - kind of like an international stalker, except that he does actually want me there with him.
The exact date is not fixed, but i (we) needed to fix a general date/time so we/i can start planning the move. May seemed like a good choice; April is usually busy work-wise here (well, until the economy crashed....) and the weather's better in Germany. Nothing like moving to a new country to be greeted by rain & grey skies...
So, May it is.
Am not exactly sure how i feel about everything at the moment.
I feel WAY more optimistic about moving to Germany after spending time with K over the holidays. And i can honestly say that i am excited about moving & i am really looking forward to the next stage of my life. To put it very very simply, I want to be with the German.
However, the thought of saying goodbye to the people i care about here makes me very sad.
Leaving the country i have called home for half my life also makes me sad & a bit melancholy at times.
Negotiating my way round a new culture, new job, new city does send twinges of panic through me.
Also, the thought of learning a new language does stress me.
But the thing that gives me the biggest stomach twists is the thought of physically moving out of my flat.
I have lived there for 11 years; i am a hoarder; i am unbelievably untidy - Need i say more?
How on earth am i going to negotiate my way through the mountain of crap i have accumulated?
How will i decide what to take? What should i through away? Will i regret it once i HAVE thrown it away?
That is the thing that stresses me most. Not the goodbyes, new language, new culture or new life. Just the moving.