goodbye 2005

'wherever you are' - ulrich schnauss

only a few more hours to go, and then it's done.
goodbye to 2005.

it's been a tough year - well, probably just the last 6 months, but they have kind of blotted out the first 6 months of the year.

but it's not all been bad. there HAVE been good things this year.

and i think the word to sum up 2005 for me is 'friendship'.
i can't express how much friends have helped me through all the crap of the last few months - and in many different ways...
so thank you all - even i didn't take up your offer, i really appreciate the fact that you DID offer.

it's all meant so much & i was sometimes completely overwhelmed (in a good way) by it all.

let's hope that 2006 is a better year - for all of us.

have passport, will travel

'jet girl' - the wedding present

got my passport.
got my plane ticket.
got my visa.
got my credit card.

I AM GOING TO AUSTRALIA!!!

much needed holiday, with much missed friends.

woohoo! indigo girl, j-ster - watch out! i am coming!!!

Happy Merry Christmas!

'i wish it could be christmas everyday' - wizzard

what a fun night....music, friends, smiles & lots of alcohol.
i wasn't looking forward to christmas this year, but it turned out to be a good one.

so, thank you blue corn for making christmas one to remember.
ブルーコーンのみんなさん、本当に楽しかったよ！最高なクリスマスになった！

blue corn cafe

'sweet sue, just you' - fats waller

last friday & saturday's music and drinks at blue corn - my absolutely favourite place to relax & drink & talk crap!

lovely lovely place & even better people....

cameras old & new

'the cameraeye' - billy corgan

they say a camera (photo?) never lies...
well, my camera is a liar...unless the whole world is a pink purpley colour with smears all over it.
have no idea what happened to it - it takes photos like it's possessed or something.

so, i bought a new camera.
and this is a photo of my new camera taken with my old one.....

very odd. somehow i don't want to get rid of my old camera because i kind of like it's freaky pictures...

...electric blanket...

'take me!' - the wedding present

man - it's getting cold! had to bring out my electric blanket. not as good as having a warm man, but then again, my electric blanket doesn't have cold feet & bad breathe....

still enjoying the flirting, but still equally confused by it all. know i shouldn't think about it all too much, but part of me wonders 'what is the point?'
i mean, i enjoy it and all, but then i start getting a bit paranoid & start thinking that i may be leading men on.

and then i get even MORE paranoid, and imagine myself 20 or 30 years down the road, and there i am, the old hag at the end of the bar, trying to hopelessly flirt with boys half my age, and i really am just some old sad tart.

but then the other half of me thinks, 'you silly silly girl - stop it!!'
and so i have another drink, and keep on flirting!

but please, if i ever seem too desperate, and i'm heading down the 'old tart road', tell me stop.
i'm afraid that i might cross that invisible line - not flirting because i enjoy it, but because of desperation...