I thought things were too good to be true - everything was going along smoothly.
I managed to organise a moving company to take my stuff to France, a company to move some stuff to my friends' and another company to take all the left overs away.
That's Wednesday (international moving), Thursday (domestic stuff), Friday (everything else)
Wednesday is tomorrow. I thought i would be ready for it.
Yesterday, i got home & had a complete meltdown. A combination of stress & extreme panic.
Those who know me really well know that i'm really not good in extreme situations. And this is extreme - i'm moving home & changing jobs. I'm also leaving the life i've known for 12 years (plus 6 more before that).
And the biggest thing is that i have SO MUCH STUFF. And everything costs SO MUCH MONEY.
I have been trying to whittle down my stuff & get it down to 2 cubic metres, but i don't really know how big that is. I will find out tomorrow though...
I have thrown away SO much stuff. I'm giving a way a lot too. But there seems to be SO MUCH left over. And it is completely overwhelming me; i have constant stomach cramps, i'm not sleeping properly, and i'm prone to bursting into random floods of tears.
The logical part of me is whispering in my ear, 'Just wait. 4 more days & it'll be all done'.
And i know that.
I'm also glad that my meltdown & panic is just the whole moving thing. I'm not suddenly having regrets and i'm REALLY looking forward to moving to Germany & starting my new life with The German. (Although, i have realised that once i'm in Germany, i won't be able to call him 'The German' because everyone will be German. Guess he'll be upgraded to 'My German'...)
ANYWAY - I know things will be OK. I just need to get through to Friday, then i can relax.
Just wanted to vent here; problem shared, a problem halved, and all that.
And on a final little note: thanks you everyone who made the trek out to Tsunashima for my sayonara party on 21st. Was really lovely to see you all & be surrounded by such happy faces. And i'm sorry if i passed out before you left & didn't say goodbye...the perils of Jaegermeister, eh? =)
